Just another Day in Darkness

After slumbering in bed till noon today I finally found the energy to get up and get started. Knowing that there was no job to go to and no interviews today I was playing lazy. It really does get to you after awhile knowing that you must rely on an income that is derived from a meaningless part-time job that barely pays. Well for the most part we are making ends meat and paying the bills, but it would be nice to have a little extra on the side every now and then. Don't get me wrong, I am not complaining, just venting a little. I am very happy with where I am in life, my wife, family and friends. My financial situation is alright, as previously stated, God had prepared my wife and myself for this by means of Crown Ministries. I keep checking the emails and still no response, I had recently put in for a job with JSO in Duval county for the 911 operator, praying that this pans out. Keep me and mine in your prayers and I will do the same.

I must continue to remember that when I am in my darkest times and the valleys of my life that this is whem my Lord has not forsaken me, but is carrying me.

Keeping my eyes on the Lord

Well we have got a new President in office and the unemployment is still on the rise. Jobs seem to be fewer and farther apart. Having to fill all your aps out on line really stinks. I have had a couple of meaningless offers, mostly those that do not amount to anything. My faith is still strong and yes, God is getting us through this. Sometimes are harder than others, like when my 18 year old daughter gets a job at the local mall and I am still looking. I know there is something out there and I am trying to be patient about waiting for it. God has got the place and position for me, I just don't know what it is yet. I keep on looking and I guess I am just over looking it.

When it comes, I know that it will be a blessing to myself and my family it will be a job that I can glorify my savior in. I do not want to except just any job, I want it to be the one that he wants me to be in. The one that can edify and glorify my Lord and Savior.

If you are keeping up with this blog, please continue to pray for me and my family for I am praying for others whom might be in the same spot. Don't give up hope, God is on our side.

Garage Sales to make ends meat

Well, after going through the week with no real signs of success yet, I have decided to have my monthly Garage Sale. This should help out a little, pay maybe a bill or two. I thank God above and my Church Family for walking with me on this one. I have benifited vastly through the teachings, lessons and love of each and every one of them. When I got married back in 04 my loving wife to be at that time and I had decided to take a course called Crown Ministries. Boy if I only would have known what God had been preparing us for. This course is to line your finacial bearing to that of God's Word. To sum it up, "if you don't have the money to pay for it now, you really don't need it." We had learn that our monies are infact not ours but Gods and he gives it to use to use in a biblical manner. That doesn't mean splurg buying, more niceties than nessaries. We were able to pay off all of our debt with minor exceptions (i.e. House, insurance, lights, regular living exspences). So when I lost my job last year we were not in a financial ruin we were able to sustain the loss. Does it hurt, Well of course it does, we are just able to continue living with in the same means that we always have. This is all because of the biblical teachings recieved earlier. We have learn to live with in the means to be comfortable and blessed with what God has honored us with and not outside the means by living by mans

rule. Thank you Pinwood and God above for the lessons you have taught both myself and my wife and for the love you have shown to my entire family.

Pure frustration

It has now been about 3 months, and I am still looking for the job that will take me through the next 10-15 years till I retire. Have not found anything as of yet. I feel like I am some kind of failure at times seeing as how I can not find a job to help sustain my family. I took a test for the 2009 census a couple of weeks ago and scored what I thought was fairly well, then my new 18 year old daughter took the same test last week and aced it, wow do I feel dumb. I guess at my age we look at things a little different. With the econemy the way it is, I really do not know if day light is up ahead. I keep sinking deeper and deeper into myself withdrawling from others finding myself even more alone. The thought of not having a real full time job eats at me every day. Waking up with no where to go, lack of responsibility, plainly no drive any more. I have got skills and am willing to work most any job, just can not hook one. In utmost desperation I am going to start flipping burgers again at a fast food resturant. With God and the love of my family I know I will get through this but it is not easy and I can feel for those that are going through the same trials that I am. "Don't give up", I keep telling myself, "God has got a plan for me I just don't know what it is yet."